knowing oneself
MATTHEW RAMIREZ
(TRIGGER WARNING)
Hello there! My name is Matthew James M. Ramirez, but you may call me Matt if you like. I am 16 years old and was born on September 18, 2005, making me a Virgo. I was born and raised in Dasmariñas City, Cavite, and I now stay here. I have a sibling and a mom that is separated.
I had a difficult childhood. My father has been a drug addict since his mother, my grandma, died of cancer in 2013. As a result of the drugs, he begins to change and is placed in a rehabilitation center in Taguig. I had a responsibility to fulfill while he was away, but after he got out, everything returned to normal, at least until he returned using drugs and this happened twice. His behavior began to change, and my mother was hospitalized as a result of her stress. They got separated after. Because of all of this, I promised myself that I would always be there for myself. I'm not even in puberty yet, but the stress I'm under is terrible. Many people believe I'm weak because I have daddy issues, but it's just made me stronger and more independent, even if I'm just a child. Moving on, let's move on to another topic since there's too much drama in this one.
Since you are getting to know about me, let me tell you my favorite hobbies. Singing is one of my hobbies. Whenever there was a party, there would be karaoke and me. I also enjoy reading. I was influenced by a friend, and I couldn't stop myself from reading a story after that. Every time I read a book, it takes me to another dimension where I may temporarily escape the actual world. Despite the fact that I do not own a physical copy of this book series, Maxine Lat's He's into Her is my favorite. Another hobby of mine is Binge-watching TV shows and movies because it’s one of my life's great pleasures. I've been watching a lot of movies and series since the pandemic began. Some people find it uninteresting, but Grey's Anatomy is my favorite TV show, and Alex Karev is my favorite character. He is my spirit animal, and I want to have a char
acter development just like his. I don't have a favorite genre for movies or series, but if I find anything that fits my mood, I immediately go watch it. Instead of giving up from my experience, I surround myself with the things that makes life’s fun.
Even though I want to die when I was nine, I consider myself fortunate to be alive at sixteen. I'm pretty fragile and have a bad temper. I am stubborn. I am harsh. I am impolite. Some people's first impressions of me are accurate. After having a difficult childhood, I never imagined myself to be this type of person. I guess this is simply how life wants me to be, or how I chose to be. I accepted and lived with this personality not because I wanted to, but because it was the only way I knew how. I'm sick of people who don't care about my opinion, which is why I stand firm on every point I make, and it has made me this way. I'm very aware of my attitude, and I don't like it. It makes me feel like as if I'm trying to prove something, yet all I want is to be right. I consider myself to be the most reliable, trustworthy, intelligent, caring, and kindness person anyone can meet. My friends think the same way too. I'm just a person that is being tested by life to see if I will break down or stand up. Apparently, I know myself and I know how to remove myself in a storm of life. I want this thing when I grow up where I can look back and tell myself that it was at this age that I began to change.
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